My first time for CHEN QI ZHEN!




embarrassed, happy, weird..yeah, i won chen qi zhen's concert tic! hahas. this was the 1st time i sang on national radio! damn damn weird and ps. hahas. so nervous. towards the end, i actually sang the wrong tune so i stopped. the DJs tot i not enuff breath. hahhas. the thing now is....dunno shld i go. cos is near my exams. hahas. =x

ps: thanks my sis for helping me to call in! =)

i have so so so thoughts after meeting my pri fren. din see some of them for a few years. it's rather a random meet up or maybe it is a miscommunication btw hs and me that y created this gathering. hahas. apparently, a lot of pple last min pang seh us so ya..ended up there are only 5 of us.

we went to nyny to have our dinner. i feel everyone still look the same. after dinner, we head to timbree! obiviously, i am the one who recommended it! hahas. anyway, that's not the point. the point is...i am amazed how the same education- same pri sch mould us into diff pple. sometimes, i cannot help but wonder is this nature or nurture?

hs is now searching for her mr right one. i feel she is rather mature in her thinking as in she knows wat she wants and din want to waste time on any guys. i agreed with dhs that she is more mature than xs when it comes to this issue.

while for ws, he admit that he is a "chill-er". forever, relaxing and chilling. that's y he took 4 years to complete his poly. somehow, i feel that he can be a very successful man but....he is very pessmistic and lack of confident. when we touch on love or marriage issues, he is realistic but yet LACK OF CONFIDENT. he feel that with only a diploma and having the "relax" attitude, he is not going to find any gf or even wife in spore. he even told me stop taking so many cert. hahas. He hopes to find a thai gf instead cos he feel that he can fulfill a simple thai gal's wish and lead a slow and simple life. i tot he is rather realistic BUT i think he can really do much better. but he jus think so lowly of himself.

on the contary, dhs is a different person as compared to ws. he is full of ambitious and nth really can stop him. he is willing purse his dreams at the expense of his love-his gf. den, hs being the "looking-for-the-right-one" person started this small debate on being selfish of pursing his dreams at the expense of his gf. hahas. as for me, my stand is if u noe, what u really going for. yes. i can tell u make the right choice. in life, u will definitely be successful in one of the catergories-CAREER, FAMILY or STUDY and depending on ur luck (maybe?), some can be successful in all, some maybe two but everyone shld at least be successful in one of the catergory. And, dhs is just forgoing the FAMILY and placing his bets on his career. but who knows at the end of the day, he might end up with both?

lastly, gz, the crapper of the night, keep lying since he stepped into nyny. hahas. what he shifted his house to sk and spy on me..a lot of rubbish.

on my way back, i tot our mini catch up and realised how interesting each individual is. i remb i studied in my finanicial economics that investors falls in one of the catergories risk-averse, risk netural or risk-taker. everyone seems like a investor that places bets in his/her life depending on what you looking for in life (diff catergories).the risk in some game is rather high yet u will yield high return. so every moves (decision) u take in life will determine the game (outcome).

we shall see how things go 10 years later...

*i almost died of being a passive smoker for the whole night.

recently, i feel veri veri sianz. dunno y. feel like going out though there are a lot of work waiting for me to do. i tell myself that every week i must have at least one activity. but now, one activity doesn't seem to be enough cos i am really bored! dunno y. dun have the moviatation to go home! i suspect the cause of it is becos my 5 day week schedule. Most of the days, i go to sch for like 1 or 2hrs and meet with this difficulty to drag myself home. hahas.
this week, i going for my pri gathering. initially, tot of going to the entertainment awards event but it clashes with my gathering! SO SIANZ. next week, i going to linnette's house to watch buttons. hahas. hopefully, i am able to attend the vb session and cycling is still on.

was reading mf's blog and i saw this http://www.goldinuniverse.com/. it is a test of ur personality. i think is quite true for me. hahas

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace. Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that you break down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you are quite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential to your self esteem.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.