i really glad that you stay. not only to share my joy but also catch me when i fall. really thankful. u nv noe how ur words/writings can do great impact to others. u express ur thinking through writings as u dun speak well. yes, smile chased away the tears. thanks for the reminder. tml i will be smiling to the sun as life is GREAT even though there are bumps here n there. thanks, thanks, thanks!
i realised the "best friends" i made will always eventually leave me. it makes me wonder am i a lousy fren.
dear xxx,
you promised that we will always be friend and that i will not lose you. yet in fact, we already drift apart. i didn't know that our friendship is jus so fragile. i lost. perhaps, from the very start, i already expected sth lidat will happen. sm was right. i am juz stubborn and refused to believe that will come by one day.
Someone who is so navie to believe in you, carmen
my definition of a fren..
fren is a person i noe things abt him/her..her/his life. juz some updates to let me know u r safe..that will be enough. At least, when someone asks me do u noe how fren A is doing.
I will be able to ans cos i am his/her fren... a good fren of his/her..
when i found sth i like, the sth will be away from me. the things i like to do, there always reasons that i cannot do it. yes, very 无奈.
i found the sports i always want to play since young. i really love it alot. i determined to play. but..there are things that are stopping me. i am stuck in the middle. i remb al said b4 i am those who is 三分钟热度. i am so determined to prove that once my passion strucks me, i will play to my very best and stay long. but...it seems like this time round i cannot continue anymore.
am i going to leave the team? am i going to leave all my darlings i known for 3mths? the joy i found in the sports i jus cannot explain. something that they dun understand. something that only me and my heart know. 内心的我很想很想继续但却不能.非常无奈.
12:13 AM, Friday, August 14, 2009
My Choice
Given two choices: 1. one feel happy and makes the people ard upset 2. one feel upset herself/himself and makes the people ard happy
i will choose the latter. perhaps, tt's me. i learn to stop requesting. i learn to cherish. i prefer they do things at their own will. at least, in this way, it makes me better. even in the end, i got the things i want. i wun be able to feel the intangiable thing called - 真心.
something just cannot be explained.
1:33 AM, Monday, August 10, 2009
I pledged with ronald mcdonald @ 8.22pm!
wolverine organised a outing at east coast park on 9th aug! we are supposed to meet at 7pm for dinner but apparently, everyone was late! n some are even coming at 12am cos they going for the night cycling. hahas. sy's bro gave us a free ride to ecp and we were there at ard 8pm. den we saw RONALD MCDONALD! yes, the one with red hair and shoes! of cos, with his big red mouth too! hahas. sy and i get pretty excited over this bright yellow suit guy. hahas. we followed him ard mac cos we want to take pic w him. hahas. after taking pic, we got interviewed by the ST razor tv. hahas. i dunno what to say n i am crapping. hahas. at 8.22pm, we gathered in front with all the mac staffs and of cos, with RONALD leading the crowd. we said our pledge loud n clear and sang singapore day songs! i think it's super fun n cool to be able to pledge w ronald n sing song w him!
I LOVE SINGAPORE!
I LOVE MCDONALD!
I LOVIN IT!
I AM ON STRAITS TIMES RAZOR TV!
5:48 PM, Sunday, August 09, 2009
mouth exercising day!
yes, candy is back in spore! after 6mths in korea! we went to the 10 doallr ktv from 2-7pm. it's so tiring to sing for so long. hahas. after which, we went to crystal jade to have our dinner. we kinda of released our anger by telling each other all the unhappy things and weird people we met. hahas. we tried to stop cos we believe in karma. hahas.
12:44 AM, Saturday, August 08, 2009
conference i am so elated to meet so many big shots and prof. i saw my IDOL prof. hahas. he is going to be one of my prof next semester! but i doubt his paper will be easy. anyway, i took pics with my fyp prof as well as other prof. hahas. attended the dinner which cost each like 70 bucks for free. it's supposed to be a job yet it turned out to be a "eating" session. i had 6 meals on that day. i enjoyed the whole event. =)
1:20 PM, Wednesday, August 05, 2009
my no 1 shifu
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: haha ya ya head filled with nuts lol..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: okie la..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: at least u have a kind heart..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: n can be quite wity at times..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: fit the bill to be my tudi..
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Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: but, as ya dear shifu..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: i really wish tt someday, somehow, someone is lukcy enuff to have u as his gf..
Rhys-Faith is a refusal to panic. says: till den, Foshan Nunnery beckons..
but sometimes, it makes me wonder...is he really no 1 afterall?-_-
11:29 PM, Tuesday, August 04, 2009
my 1st time.
went for a briefing at ntu. den after, went to watch a movie w elin, ys and hh. damn funnie. my 1st time to watch such show. hahas. it's really educational in a way.
thereafter, i met up with my dear shifu! i think he really noe me. what he predicted is so damn accurate. i really appreciated all his advices. n not 4getting, the candy that he insisted that it is super NICE! -_- (my bro said it tasted like soap though)
*i shall stop acting like a fool.
12:08 AM,
The Slience Moments
struggling.
i am the world lousiest person.
someone juz knock some SENSE into my HEAD!
*the tears r for u.
12:06 AM, Monday, August 03, 2009
when you feeling down, u know there are frens ard.
i am so grateful to have jane n xr.
Be Happy!
Stay Foolish. Stay Hungry.
About Me
Carmen.
I live in starry starry land.
38-ing is my fav hobby.
