4:21 PM, Monday, June 28, 2010
the habit.
it was busy saturday for me. the day started with a failed interview. Followed, by a 45mins kite flying at marina barrage w rena, cheng, joy, candy and flor. dinner at creation cafe at shaw tower and to my surprise, shaw tower has many new eatries. it's time to take some time off to explore. we tried extoic ice cream flavours. it's rather refreshing to see and taste flavours like wasabi lime, choco stout and applepie. after dinner, they decided to catch a movie but i have to rush down to changi village to meet my grad trip fren for a stayover at li sian's place.
I don't the feeling of taking bus 2 alone to changi village as the place is dimly-tilted and i am afraid i will miss my stop. So, i politely asked this lady in her 50s seating next to me for directions. she told me to juz alight at the very last stop and i am able to see the market. she continued asking me why do i travel so far to changi village for dinner. questions after questions. we ended up chatting w each other for 20mins ride. she is jus like a old lost friend. she initally supposed to alight a stop earlier than me but she saw my fears of getting lost and offered to stop at the same stop as me. at the point of time, i feel so relieved tt someone is accompanying me but i do feel rather gulity about it. Then, she explained that the last stop is better and nearer for her. I felt rather puzzled because if this is the truth, why does she wants to alight a stop earlier? but, I didn't try to probe about it. however, i got my ans 5mins before we alighted. she said, "my husband likes to alight one stop earlier but now he is no longer here. it juz a habit." i hold my breath and feel my tears coming out.
it is not the only the habit but rather is a form, a way, a channel to remb and miss someone u loved.
11:51 PM, Thursday, June 24, 2010
contradictions occur
interviews here n there. met with weirdos which i thought i will never see it in a govt interview. really funny to find that such people do exist. worried abt a lot of things. my future is rather unpredictable and i am embarking on a path that push me even further away from my dream. "we work towards our dreams" yet "i am moving from my dreams". perhaps, this is not a fairytale anymore and we all labelled it as REALITY. i will get my feet on and get things done. hopefully.
courage n lot of blessings, please. 
11:00 AM, Monday, June 14, 2010
